She thinks of him

She misses him so much it hurts She is trying to get through her day Smiling with her head high enough That they won't ask her what's wrong So she acts like she is ok You see being away from him is torture The shortest about of time feels so long It's like everything she does Apart of him Is with her As she jumps into her car There goes their song It brought her back for a second As she approach's her house on the left She sheds some tears As she remembers The date and time they both met The day comes to a end She thought of him a million times She been through the worst Dealt with real issues The truth and also the lying She asks herself a question As she sits at the edge of her queen size bed His aroma all over her sheets Her appetite waiting to be fed Is he sad being away for so long When he is with me Is he at peace Will luv have him coming back Or will lust keep him company in the streets?

Luv continues...

I tried not to let it go, Even the strongest man can lose balance and trip, Sometimes when your blinded by the affection of another person, Deception flys bye and vague words go unnoticed, From your lovers lips, You watch it happen like a movie, Holding on to your seats , Fuck it, let the action begin, I seen apart of us drown, At one point I thought we could swim, I tried to get closer, and closer, Trying to relive our beginning again, As our hopes twirled like a tornado, You could just imagine the violent winds, With nowhere to hide, My intuition said it was the end, How can we be together in the same vicinity , Then at the same time it felt like, You were in another room, You swept me out of sight, I was the dirt, You was the broom, Or vice versa, We comitted a mental suicide, When our depression started to hit, That's why everything I did annoyed you, We should have been threw in the white towel, We were ready to quit, We get upset when we feel used, When loved ones lose respect, They care less and less , Things become a habit, Unaware of the words we manifest, From day to night, from night to day, How can you change before my eyes, How can I pretend like everything is ok, Your love at one point , Blinded me like the glare from the suns rays, I would visualize so many colors, Why was our color grey, As I reflect now, Quiet in my space, Flickering images of us, And what we did, Fade in, and fade out, To the point now, Its Like it never happen , A love lost, I accept that our journeys will take us on different paths I'm not proud I made you cry Im happy at times I made you laugh What's beautiful I can always start a new chapter again Maybe not jump into any relationships right away Just back to being comfortable in my own skin The cycle continues, Some of us learn While some of us carry the drama From their ex to the next Give yourself time to heal Stop looking down raise your head high and live Only then we can give another person what they truly need Break it down yourself Love iz...................

Moving

The feeling is getting more intense Sitting still Moving fast A love that has spoken Trapping words Looking through the glass Seeing if it is half full Or empty Is there nothing left I speak to myself To reassure that current situations Never define or forever damage my state of mind Falling never meant I reached my demise It just means that this life Always brings a surprise The dark shadows that linger I break through Destined to rise Out the corners Like a pack of wolves ready to bit From being trapped By other peoples failures Who never made it in life Since they are bitter To them nothing you do is right Beaten souls Waiting for the moment you slip Insecure so they control Never the words that drip like slim off their flithy lips

As I stand here in thought



I make sure every minute and hour



I strive to stay on my feet



We sometimes forget what brought us here



As I looked down



I noticed I resembled the flower growing out the concrete



I been stepped on without a care



Not even noticed



Felt like a child lost in a park



I was under the utmost stress



I fueled my energy



It was the darkness



That ignited my spark



It took me feeling down in out



For me to shake it off



So I practiced mediation and deep breaths



Sometimes the problems you face



don't matter at all



So everyday I'm thankful I'm blessed



I will always keep moving forward



A wise man taught me one day



Sculpt your thoughts and how you feel



You are the artist



What will your image display!!

It's a new day,
Now as time passes by,
Not talking to you eases the pain,
What is it worth,
If I can only go up your skirt,
Squeeze your buns,lick your lips,
If you just disappear, sprinting with my heart,
Like we didn't even exist,
I know life is not fair,
Why am I here expressing myself,
When your out grooving out there,
You don't even care,
So just when I put my guard down,
I ask myself could this work,
First I felt the pleasure,
I was hooked,
It's crazy going from a high to a low,
Watching my hypnotic beauty leave,
couldn't even clap
Now she leaves the show,
Next time I will put my glasses on,
Then my down low hat,
Just not to be seen and get clapped,
With words and beauty,
The ammo over there stacked,
Thing iz,
I won't be here whenever you decide
To get back,
I lost my breath after the first 8 laps,
I thought I was going to cross the finish line that day,
Can only run in circles for so long,
She vanished in May.....

Sometimes when you're feeling important
Sometimes when your ego's
in bloom,
Sometime when you take it
for granted
You're the best qualified in
in the room
Sometimes when you feel that
your going
Would leave an unfillable
hole,
Just follow this simple instruction
And see how it humbles your soul.

Take a bucket and fill it with water
Put your hand in it, up to the wrist
Pull it out and the hole that's remaining
Is a measure of how you will be missed.

The moral in this quaint
example
Is to do the best you can
Be proud of yourself, but
remember,
There's no indispensable
man.

Times have changed...

As some move along traveling through life
They take for granted,
Their days and there nights
Some look towards the sky
And love someone they never did see
Then hate everyday people
Like you, her, and me
The girls of today
Are growing 2 fast
Must be the water
As I look towards the past
Don't remember so many young women
With grown boobs, and ass
You have these news people
Who gossip like kids
I'ts like asking for money
from the homeless
They have nothing to give
Built like no other
Last of a dying breed
Also born a king
Changing colors like Fall leaves
To rise back up in Spring